Thinking

Yeah, growing up, yeah Know a lot, but I don't know enough What you doin' here? Why you even showin' up? Yeah Showin' up for tryna show me love Why you look confused like you don't really know what's up? Yeah Why you always tryna judge? I know who you are, yeah Why you tryna, tryna front? Yeah I am not the man I was, look Ayy, made me a promise, I just hope you keep it I don't like to get involved with things I don't believe in I don't like to hang with people I don't trust to speak with If you tell me that you mean it, then I hope you mean it Yeah, feel like I don't deserve you when I hurt your feelings I'm vulnerable, you got the keys to open all my secrets You've always been there when I'm low to help pick up the pieces I know I act like I don't need you yet, but lately, I've been thinking Yeah, lately, I've been thinking Yeah, yeah, I have been thinking Yeah, I have been thinking Yeah, I wish that I was optimistic I wish that I could trust my intuition To most, negative thinking makes you a pessimist, but To me, negative thinking means I'm just realistic That's how I feel, ain't that a twisted view? Claim that I don't care what people think, but is that really true? Those the type of questions that I struggle with That's the type of thing to keep me up at night Wondering, I wonder if the pressure I've been under is too much on my shoulders Who gon' care when this all fades, I turn gray and get older? Yeah, that's the type of thing that I don't wanna answer But just 'cause I don't wanna do it don't mean I don't have to See, these are lessons that you learn in life And we only get one of 'em, hope I'm learning right I know that everything comes with a price Yeah, yeah, everything comes with a price Y'all got no clue what I have sacrificed And lately, I've been thinking Yeah, lately, I've been thinking Yeah, yeah, I have been thinking Yeah, I have been thinking (I have been thinking)