Spank

"I don't remember the first time But I think I'll survive Probably there not to try to wake up because it feeds it 'gain keeps it alive There's specific things That I have to do Day to day just to keep it at bay You wouldn't believe if you knew (Oh no, this isn't real) (Oh no, this isn't real) He doesn't know the secret Here is the best part This is going to take me Right back to the start If I can keep it If it set in mind Wait until it sets Come try it a second time I don't remember the first time, But I think I'll survive Probably there not to try to wake up because it feeds 'gain keeps it alive (Oh no, this isn't real) (Yeah) He doesn't know the secret Here is the best part This is going to take me Right back to the start If I can keep it If it set in mind Wait until it sets Come try it a second time I can feel it move Up into my head It is ? Panic in my head I feel it coming all Taking over view Oh please not tonight There's nothing I can do This is bigger than me This is in my fear This is pedophilia I just disappear Swears are falling from me Swallow up inside Sail ? Won't make this upside I can barely handle I can hypothesise Sailing through the curtains Off into the sky Where there is no Depth perception Keep preoccupied Self deception Nobody recognizes It doesn't have a name My brother is infected He's acting just the same Screaming like a siren Up and down the hall He just wants to stop it He wants to end it all I am just a child I am nothing more There are no basic functions I am running for I could run a mile My distortion Everything is Disproportioned Swallow ? break All is back again Everything is closer More is just the same And I can hear it It is raining mind I will just forget this 'Til next time "