F64

Yo Jam, this is a letter to you It’s been a while but it’s been hard for me to get in the booth Since we last spoke I’ve become a father of two Trying to live life with a smile but that’s been harder to do Coz all I wanna do is talk about you But these tears won’t let me talk about you We should’ve known that we’d be lost without you Therapy sessions digging deep in depression I got a life full of blessings but this just breaks my fucking heart At your birthday couldn’t even crack a smile I just cried and left the party, Neesh I’ll see you in a while Headed to the mural, got some jerk wings and plantain Coz that is the way that me and you would celebrate it I never knew you touched the stuff, coz you’d always bad me up If you saw me more than drunk, you always hated what it does Before Lyra I just stopped, I haven’t even wanted one I can’t get over this is fucked, man I wished I’d known Yeah we cried for nine nights at your family home Laid you to rest in the ground but without a stone You know it hits me most at moments now when I’m alone Every morning I remember that you’re really gone Coz it’s been a long night and I cry coz I miss my brother You know for life, got your sis and mother Day and night it still hits that you’re gone And right now I’m spilling tears in my cup You left the world before you met Jupiter Wish you’dve known you would be godfather You would’ve loved loving my little girls If not for them I’d be done with the world Was there two hours after you passed Speeding east to west silent in the back of the car Was at your mum’s there all week trying make sense but I can’t And although it’s been a year still feel the pain in my heart Coz you were there from the start The day we met yeah I moved in and we were never apart People assumed that we were lovers but were brothers in arms Symbiotic bond of love and gave each other a chance, my god Ah Fuck sake, lately I’ve been crying so much my lungs ache Teardrops all over my shirt like blood stains And I know to heal a heart it must break But I’m done praying They gave me a shovel at your burial and Watching you get lowered is something I can’t forget at all People find and stop me in the street and say it’s terrible But they don’t know you like I knew you and they never will No one saw the nights turn into day when we were battle rapping No one saw the belly laugh, and every train to somewhere random No one saw the holidays, and then our first experience clubbing No one saw the things you did for me and never asked for nothing No one read the conversations of the moves that we were planning No one knew about the way you felt the scene left you abandoned No one knew about your fears coz you would hide them with a smile No one knew when people took an inch you would give them a mile Coz that was always Jamal, sb to the crowd They used to shout your net worth but they don’t mention it now They talk about your good deeds and infectious smile A golden heart that’s still remembered is worth more than a crown I promised 64 bars and now I keep it to Tanisha, mummy, Isaac, the gang but I just wish that you’d seen it I can’t accept that you’re gone or the grief I’m feeling I prayed to God for answers but he still won’t give me a reason I think about you every day, nothing will take this pain away I’ll keep your legacy amazing mate The conversations at your grave’s the only way to be close I know you’ll greet me with a smile on the day I go Coz it’s been a long night and I cry coz I miss my brother You know for life, got your sis and mother You know I cry coz I miss my brother, my brother Was SBTV