Aldonza

I was spawned in a ditch By a mother who left me there Naked and cold and too hungry to cry I never blamed her I'm sure she left hoping That I'd have the good sense to die Then of course there's my father I'm told that young ladies Can point to their fathers with maidenly pride Mine was some regiment here for an hour I can't even tell you which side So of course I became as befitted my delicate birth The most casual bride of the murdering scum of the earth For a lady has modest and maidenly airs And a virtue I somehow suspect that I lack It's hard to remember those maidenly airs In a stable laid flat on your back Won't you look at me look at me God won't you look at me Look at the kitchen slut reeking of sweat Born on a dung heap to die on a dung heap A strumpet men use and forget If you think that you see me Not quite at my virginal best Cross my palm with a coin And I'll willingly show you the rest You have shown me the sky But what good is the sky To a creature who'll never do better than crawl Of all the cruel bastards who've badgered and battered me You are the cruelest of all Can't you see what your gentle insanities do to me Rob me of anger and give me despair Blows and abuse I can take and give back again Tenderness I cannot bear So please torture me now With your sweet Dulcineas no more I am no one I'm nothing I'm only Aldonza The whore