golden years

I can never get some rest Oh-oh oh Staring at my ceiling Thinking 'bout the weight that's on my chest I'm always worried 'bout what's next I think I forgot How to live in present tense Present tense Yeah I'm supposed to be in the prime of my life But all I can see are the demons I fight Try to believe that there's a silver lining I can't find it I don't wanna be Spending all my golden years Climbing all the way to the top So how the hell'd I wind up here Tryna be somebody I'm not I used to be a lot less jaded Now I'm lost and all frustrated Trading happiness for tears And all my golden years I could a mile ahead by now Somewhere better But I'm burning all my daylight wondering how I can get there I know I shouldn't count all of my days under the sun But I don't wanna blink and then I wake up and it's gone I never really got to be the person that I wanna be Oh oh I'm supposed to feel like I'm living it right Is it all in my head Am I wasting my time Try to believe that there's a silver lining I can't find it I don't wanna be Spending all my golden years Climbing all the way to the top So how the hell'd I wind up here Tryna be somebody I'm not I used to be a lot less jaded Now I'm lost and all frustrated Trading happiness for tears And all my golden years Oh-oh oh-oh oh And all my golden years Oh-oh oh-oh oh I don't wanna be Spending all my golden years Climbing all the way to the top So how the hell'd I wind up here Tryna be somebody I'm not I used to be a lot less jaded Now I'm lost and all frustrated Trading happiness for tears And all my golden years