Away When You Were Here

Dad I know you were sad when you died And I was young it's the way I kept you in my mind The mess that was left and my mother cried And when she stood up she was nobodys mother I'd be fine But I missed you then And I miss you now Liked you'd missed things I might say You're still lost in clouds But I'm older now I can see through lifting haze That you were away even when you were here Sometimes a phrase or a manner that's you Comes through me it goes in a flash It's a frame it's a blink like life Oh and how much now should we pay for the past Cause you could age with grace if I freed you in my mind But I loved you then And I love you now All the things I wished I'd asked When I'm lost in clouds I remember how I was robbed and I was blessed And you were away even when you were here Cause it's not about you not you anymore It's about what I'd do with it all And I I'll never let you let me down This morning I wake to be older than you were for miles very footstep would be mine You'd have lost that weight you'd have gone so straight You'd have made my wedding day You'd have saved my youth from that point of truth You'd have kept those wolves at bay But you were away you were away even when you were