Candy Coated

Now in these cynical times Stereotypical minds Got me falling from my pinnacle the minute I climb Now these subliminal thoughts got individuals blind I'm trying to look beyond the lies Just to see what I'll find I'm like a flower in a cave Another hour in the maze And I'll cower to the power of my criminal ways The sun is shining but I'm catching minimal rays It's time for me to grow out of this childish phase My life is like a battle that I'll probably never win 'cause I keep thinking big and risking everything Life's a challenge and I wonder if I'll ever find the balance Mixed emotions and confusion topped off with many talents Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change Can I change, will I change, or am I always gonna be the same I blame the world for making me such a freak But the world wants to blame it on me (My life is twisted) Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change Can I change, will I change, or am I always gonna be the same I blame the world for making me such a freak But the world wants to blame it on me (My life is twisted) My finger's pointing in the mirror I'm the one now (one now) I see my shadow in the sun dial (sun dial) Am I really out of change Put my freedom in a cage Slow down Man I got a son now There's nothing new they all said it And I know it but I had to go through it myself I'm hard-headed But that's the only way that I'll learn Get caught in the fire there's no escaping the burn (and it burns) Change this, change that, change is full of lies I remain the same cat, wear a good disguise Living life looking through my third blind crooked eye So if I change I'd be changing for the worst wouldn't I? Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change Can I change, will I change, or am I always gonna be the same I blame the world for making me such a freak But the world wants to blame it on me (My life is twisted) Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change (changes) Can I change, will I change, or am I always gonna be the same I blame the world for making me such a freak But the world wants to blame it on me (changes) (My life is twisted) I wanna run but if I run I'm only running from myself Would it be easier if I was someone else (changes) I'm like a child playin' with matches that's never been burned Relearning all the lessons that I've already learned On a highway, to a destination I've earned So many exits, but I've never bothered to turn I'm like a piece of shared glass laying on frame of a window That was broken by the bricks of pain Sometimes I feel just like the devil's guinea pig He's watching me just to see how deep I can dig I admit I'm fucked up and got a lot to learn So now I'm dancing in the ashes of the bridges I've burned Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change (changes) Can I change, will I change, or am I always gonna be the same I blame the world for making me such a freak (changes) But the world wants to blame it on me (My life is twisted) Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change (changes) Can I change, will I change, or am I always gonna be the same I blame the world for making me such a freak But the world wants to blame it on me (changes) (My life is twisted) Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change (will I) Will I ever change (can I) Can I ever change (will I) Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change But the world wants to blame it on me (My life is twisted) Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change (will I) Will I ever change (can I) Can I ever change (will I) Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change But the world wants to blame it on me (My life is twisted)