i wish you cheated

I'm anxious Kinda sad Hard to be your best when you lost the best you had Spending days just on my phone Wondering where it all went wrong I'm nervous pretty wired I said your name too much now my lungs got tired Thinking maybe I'm to blame I just need someone to hate You made this so damn hard for me You and your god damn honesty It got me thinking I wish you would cheated and smashed my heart to pieces I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leaving I wish you were the villain A psycho with no feelings So how do I move on When you did nothing wrong Wish you did something wrong But you did nothing wrong Know it's messed up kinda bad But I wish we didn't talk and you just left like that I'd be angry instead of numb dammit who have I become You made this so damn hard for me You and your god damn honesty It got me thinking I wish you would cheated and smashed my heart to pieces I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leaving I wish you were the villain A psycho with no feelings So how do I move on When you did nothing wrong Wish you did something wrong But you did nothing wrong In the middle of the night I start to fantasize That you would ruin my whole life Cuz you're the best I had And I keep running back Like a god damn fool tryna change your mind You were all mine Can't believe I wish you would cheated and smashed my heart to pieces I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leaving I wish you were the villain a psycho with no feelings So how do I move on When you did nothing wrong