By Myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me Do I follow my instincts blindly Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening Do I sit here and try to stand it Or do I try to catch them red handed Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness Because I can t hold on when Im stretched so thin I make the right moves but Im lost within I put on my daily fade but then I just end up getting hurt again By myself Myself I ask why but in my mind I find I can t rely on myself Myself I ask why but in my mind I find I can t rely on myself I can't hold on To what I want when Im stretched so thin It's all too much to take in I can't hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in If I turn my back Im defenseless And to go blindly seems senseless If I hide my pride and let it all go on Then they ll take from me till everything is gone If I let them go I ll be outdone But if I try to catch them I ll be outrun If Im killed by the questions like a cancer Then I ll be buried in the silence of the answer By myself I ask why but in my mind I find I can t rely on myself I ask why but in my mind I find I can t rely on myself I can't hold on To what I want when Im stretched so thin It's all too much to take in I can't hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in Don't you know I can't tell you how to make it go No matter what I do how hard I try I can t seem to convince myself why Im stuck on the outside Don't you know I can't tell you how to make it go No matter what I do how hard I try I can t seem to convince myself why Im stuck on the outside I can't hold on To what I want when Im stretched so thin It's all too much to take in I can't hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in I can't hold on To what I want when Im stretched so thin It's all too much to take in I can't hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in