Nightmare

I'm too emotional, I have to let you go I haven't cleaned my room since last time you came home And everyday that passes by Makes it so much harder to enjoy my life Though, it's part of growing older I'm sleeping with the lights off, it's better, If I'm blind So I can get you off my mind, 'cause Every time I see you smile, I die a little bit Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare But every time I see those eyes, I wonder if you know You're keeping me up late at night, I don't know where to go I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare I'm too impulsive, I didn't mean to call again I wasn't thinking straight last night at 3 A.M I've been having trouble tryna fall asleep Melatonin by my side, but my will is weak Keep notions that I'm fine so I don't need Medicated remedies, fuck benzodiazepines Every time I see you smile, I die a little bit Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare But every time I see those eyes, I wonder if you know You're keeping me up late at night, I don't know where to go I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare Why do I even try? I don't know why I wanna fall in love I wanna die, every time I see you popping up Forget all the fights, remember the nights we had, it's not enough I wanna lie, pretend I'm alright, but Every time I see you smile, I die a little bit Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare But every time I see those eyes, I wonder if you know You're keeping me up late at night, I don't know where to go I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare Every time I see you smile, I die a little bit Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare But every time I see those eyes I wonder if you know You're keeping me up late at night, I don't know where to go I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare