Hard To Believe

Reach out my hand For the shade on the window, I'm lying in bed There's a house just next door Covered in tears for the grey skies that pass overhead But in this dark room I'm a prisoner of bed sheets and November gloom Drag your feet, to the floor, with nothing to lose just keep asking for more It's been ten long years of high hopes and long roads, when your dreams meet your fears Now the soul I've acquainted, and frequently meet like a friend chatting up over afternoon tea, oh my god Its hard to believe I'm still here Stubborn in heart and so deaf in the ears To the sound of the drum To march as an ant til this heart comes undone Oh and I, I can't look back The past is a puzzle, there's pieces I lack With no room for a doubt To look for the pieces I can't live without Well I know my days are all numbered Like a train at a crossing that's passing me by In each car, some filled to the brim while others are vacant, along for the ride There's no need to feel sorry for me, these pities are means to a lonely disease Drag your feet to the floor, trust becomes easy when you choose it before Its hard to believe I'm still here Stubborn in heart and so deaf in the ears To the sound of the drum To march as an ant til this heart comes undone Oh and I, I can't look back The past is a puzzle, there's pieces I lack With no room for a doubt To look for the pieces I can't live without