A Page In Her Diary (Interlude Narration)

I wish it were history this trickery It’s common decency all it is to me is an unsolved mystery that always ends in how could you do this to me you kissed me like you meant it so demented in your ultimate plan in every movie that we rented licked it n sent it took my heart n kept it i said it n read it a broken heart I wouldn’t let it but here I am again and venting to my friends n spending time on these splendid rhymes for these hectic times i hate you i guess i judged you for your cover n there goes another one I’m just a girl you got recovering old summers n smothering love numbers when I thought you weren’t like the others You shouldn’t be allowed to hold a heart not a whole not a part You knew the roll from the start played the part like and addict and you were so good at it looking at it i admit that I’m fragile but i swear you planned it and understand it and passed it off as candid You took something innocent branded it an accidental incident you couldn’t stop until you landed it I swear I had my wall so high And I think you knew it Why Why did you do it It’s so stupid that we cry For these stupid guys that act shy With good style n pretty smiles I was fine You didn’t have to try To get inside and steal my little and only pride I hide I was okay with lonely nights And not knowing fights You could have left me a lone that night I mean you didn’t know me right But I guess you have your needs of planting more than seeds Eating feelings like rats n cheese n spitting em out like a bag of seeds The greed is a sickness in its ridiculous living in this and Witnessing the indigenous dicks in the world were just girls I’m just a girl Feeling fat n ugly in the study of getting somebody to touch me but love me Maybe treat me like a lady and take me to the city feeling giddy at the fact that he told me that I’m pretty We don’t recognize his lies and because of a life time of try’s we use pussy as a prize They start out as good guys and eat your heart with good byes And good bye is what it better be In pretty little lettering There’s not a single care in me When I see kids start in elementary it’s tearing me Where is all the parenting its scaring me I’d rather be not be loved than to loved temporarily So I’ll let this be a lesson of leveling with legends as I cry with every sentence in remembrance This is for the ones that hurt me in stirred me and tried to love me in a hurry This is for the ones that tried to play me like a baby thinking money n words would break me This is for the ones that wooed me to try and do me and all they did was lose me Here’s to a new me an everlasting happy cheers to keeping it classy can’t be standing laughing at the ones that thought they almost had me I’ll be sassy cause I can be if you want me you can have me with a little understanding ill only be demanding of respect n intellect a guy who lets me get the check and accept that I don’t need him I need me and I’ll leave him if need be I guess we learn through trial and Burn through piles of words n styles and what if heard for a while Is that everyone deserves to learn n smile So with that being said and with chivalry dead we build n shed tears instead with fears in our head So live life for loving cause no big deal is money Laugh at what’s funny and Stare at the stunning Cause were wasting these days that don’t see as precious And if everyone knows that negativity’s infectious We might actually do something right with the world that God left us