Change

If ever you had said to me before That I would live this life that I am Living now I guess it's all so strange To feel the way I do inside but Have so much that I could feel some Pride for in my life so why is it that I feel like this How do I feel? I've been here before, I've felt this Retreat to a place, a place within me I need this. Keep it all down, bottled inside It breaks me to torment again and Torture me like it used to I try and try to break away from all the hate I'm feeling for everyone of you that's ever Done me wrong. I need to justify the reasons For the way I'm living. I guess I can't cause I don't feel like I deserve it So now the waves they have subsided And my soul is bleeding I can't take away The shame I feel, forgive me