Feelings Are Fatal

i’m happy for you i’m smiling for you i’d do anything for you for you it’s always for you and never or me i need it to stop so let me tell you please i’m always sad and i’m always lonely but i can’t tell you that i’m breaking slowly closed doors locked in, no keys keeping my feelings hidden there is no ease i need it to stop and i want to be able to open up but my feelings are fatal my feelings are fatal how many times must i keep it inside i need to let go and i swear that i’ve tried but opening up means trusting others and that’s just too much i don’t want to bother so i’ll keep it inside and bury it deep i know it’s not healthy but you won’t hear a peep though i’m always sad and i’m always lonely i could never tell you that i’m breaking slowly closed doors locked in, no keys keeping my feelings hidden there is no ease i need it to stop and i want to be able to open up but my feelings are fatal my feelings are fatal