Rattlesnake

Live for the moment, I've been trying Running out of reasons to control myself And, yeah, it might have been the drugs Or their self medicine Have a toast to your luck It never changes Going unconscious I let them all nod out and back in As I told myself That it might just be the way That it dawned on me From your arms to the grave All on paper I keep thinking Maybe they were right and I'm wasting All my precious time But I keep riding with the ghost Just to see if it's true If I'll become their host Meet my maker And you believed them All the ones you swam out to sea with Never warned you when it got cold outside And the money was marked Made your heart go dry Got swept under tide I'm still breathing And someday, I'll cut all the heartstrings Just to save myself 'Cause when your home's out of sight I hope you see me to what they call my life Teenage wasteland I'll make you see it All the ways you snuck into my head Tearing holes in my sense Till the good part of me died And the trembling stopped From your rattlesnake bite And it all went dark