Open (Bestival Live 2011)

i really don`t know what i`m doing here i really think i should`ve gone to bed tonight but just one drink and there`re some people to meet you i think that you`ll like them i have to say we do and i promise in less than an hour we will honestly go now why don`t i just get you another while you just say hello yeah just say hello so i`m clutching it tight another glass in my hand and my mouth and the smiles moving up as i stand up too close and too wide and the smiles are too bright and i breathe in too deep and my head`s getting light but the air is getting heavier and it`s closer and i`m starting to sway and the hands on all my shoulders don`t have names and they won`t go away so here i go here i go again falling into strangers and it`s only just eleven ans i`m staring like a child until someone slips me heaven and i take it on my knees just like a thousand times before and i get transfixed that fixed and i`m just looking at the floor just looking at the floor yeah i look at the floor and i`m starting to laugh like an animal in pain and i`ve got blood on my hands and i`ve got hands in my brain and the first short retch leaves me gasping for more and i stagger over screaming on my way to the floor and i`m back on my back with the lights and the lies in my eyes and the colour and the music`s too loud and my head`s all the wrong size so here i go here i go again yeah i laugh and i jump and i sing and i laugh and i dance and i laugh and i laugh and i laugh and i can`t seem to think where this is who i am why i`m keeping this going keep pouring it out keep pouring it down and the way the rain comes down hard that`s the way i feel inside i can`t take it anymore this it i`ve become this is it like i get when my life`s going numb i just keep moving my mouth i just keep moving my feet i say i`m loving you to death like i`m losing my breath and all the smiles that i wear and all the games that i play and all the drinks that i mix and i drink until i`m sick and all the faces that i make and all the shapes that i throw and all the people i meet and all the words that i know makes me sick to the heart oh i feel so tired and the way the rain comes down hard that`s how i fell inside