Disciplined Breakdown

I never ever can remember All the things that go bump in the night Quietness uncovers Betrayal now hovers And my comfort levels not quite right I'd love to stay and evaluate But my torture can't wait It seems I'm losing ground Welcome all to my disciplined breakdown I never can decipher Who listens to the words I say While I sense I'm searching I never know who's lurking To scare my sacred thought away I'd love to hang and chat a while But my minds become vile It seems I'm losing ground Welcome all to my disciplined breakdown I never can contribute To finding all the faults that sustain Never mind the answers To who spreads the cancer When the questioning of why remains I'd love to sit and rationalize But my tongues become dry It seems I'm losing ground Welcome all to my disciplined breakdown Breakdown Reality Breakdown my ability to get it back Breakdown honesty Breakdown now deliver me From all this madness and all this agony