Happy

Mmm, may— Mmm, may— [Verse 1] Since I was 17 I’ve always hated my body And it feels like my body’s hated me Can somebody find me a pill To make me un-afraid of me? [Pre-Chorus] Seen every therapist, but I’m a cynical bitch Don’t like to talk about my feelings I take another hit, I find another fake fix ‘Cause it’s easier than healing [Chorus] I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try, I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy [Post-Chorus] Mmm, may— [Verse 2] Since I was 22 I’ve been with somebody who loves me And I’ve been tryna believe it’s true, mmm But my head always messes up my heart No matter what I do [Pre-Chorus] Seen every therapist, but I’m a cynical bitch Don’t like to talk about my feelings I take another sip, I swear it’s my last fix ‘Cause it’s easier than healing [Chorus] 'Cause I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try, I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try, I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy [Post-Chorus] Mmm, maybe I'm just scared to be happy Mmm, maybe I'm just scared to be happy [Bridge] I’m so scared of having something to lose I’m scared of being somebody new I’m so scared of all them seeing the truth ‘Cause right now I’ve got nothing [Chorus] But I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try, I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy [Post-Chorus] Mmm, maybe I'm just scared to be happy (Maybe, yeah) Mmm, maybe I'm, I'm scared to be happy