Happy

I woke up this morning and I didn't feel like I was gonna die My head wasn't crowded and I didn't feel like I was gonna cry And there were no rainclouds hovering over my head And there was no weight sitting on top of my chest And it made me nervous that something was wrong, so I called up my doctor I said there was no pain and he said I'm okay, that I shouldn't be bothered But I don't believe him 'cause there's gotta be something There's always a fallout and I know that it's coming I'm so used to problems Spending all my time trying to solve 'em Now I don't feel haunted If I'm being honest How come happy makes me feel lost? I just don't understand it How come feeling good feels so wrong? This ain't what I imagined Wish that I could just move along And let myself feel the magic How come happy makes me feel lost? I just don't understand it Is there a handbook or some sort of potion that makes this feel easy Some sort of secret that makes you believe that you're finally healing I can't see the darkness when the sun's always shining I can't hear the thunder, but I know that there's lightning I'm so used to problems Spending all my time trying to solve 'em Now I don't feel haunted If I'm being honest How come happy makes me feel lost? I just don't understand it How come feeling good feels so wrong? This ain't what I imagined Wish that I could just move along And let myself feel the magic How come happy makes me feel lost? I just don't understand it How come happy makes me feel lost? I just don't understand it