honesty

If I would’ve known There would be no contemplation needed this long Void of thoughts around me for this long I know you rarely need it, Rarely need it like me But I’ll open up the conversation ‘cause I know Somebody’s like me We should be back where we should be We’ve been locking ourselves out from the real No need for contemplation it’s easier than any lies we’ve said before I’m tellin’ me, I’m tellin’ you Why is it so hard to say I love you Mama u still blaming me but I couldn’t say none to you Never meant to blame you for my wrongdoings I just wanted to tell you that their all of mine, it’s none of you All my laziness, all my carelessness of heavy things All my greediness, Gotta talk to you ‘bout all these things All these things I’ve built behind the door in my room in my high school days I hated myself, still do, and now I wish you ain’t feel the same I know I should be sounding pathetic to you psychotic to you Maybe I shouldn’t be saying these words to you 오늘은 이렇게 말해야지 하면서도 차례가 돌아올 때 지켜보는 눈빛들이 무서워 늘 솔직해지고 싶어 난 누군가를 상대할 때마다 나인적이 있을까 싶을 정도로 거짓말 더미로 몸을 덮고 벽을 세웠어 이 방에서 내보내줘라 외쳐도 결국 내가 해야 하는걸 If I would’ve known There would be no contemplation needed this long Void of thoughts around me for this long I know you rarely need it, Rarely need it like me But I’ll open up the conversation ‘cause I know Somebody’s like me We should be back where we should be We’ve been locking ourselves out from the real No need for contemplation it’s easier than any lies we’ve said before I’m tellin’ me, I’m tellin’ you