Marcus' Gospel (Feat. Michael Speaks)

I done lost myself again I done lost myself in sin I've been burned by selfish men I've been died but held it in I do not want hell to win Life's cold, I done felt the wind Could it be any clearer? When I look in the mirror I just see a jackass with a tail to pin Me and my family ain't close So I got some fame and went ghost I am not paintin' a hoax You can hear the pain in my flows They say that life has it's ups and downs But why do I stay in the lows? I don't like Marcus, I don't like Hopsin I am ashamed of them both You see, all that I have is my money I had no idea that this was coming I fell into the stereotype of a rapper I'm how they package a dummy This is my reality I embrace I look back and I can see my mistakes I just wish that I could rewind the days I honestly don't want to be out of place I guess we gotta face All these issues like this as a human sometimes Yes, I am losin' my mind If you ever come to that conclusion, it's fine Don't ignore all of the proof and the signs I made my bed, I'ma lay in it The thought is as soothin' as wine Now all need is a suit and a tie, I tried [Chorus: Michael Speaks] In my lowest times I have failed to see Sunny days are waiting I'm in need of some company God, please help this pain 'Cause I don't wanna ever see This lonely road again (This lonely road again) [Verse 2: Hopsin] Take it away, I want the peace, I want the happiness I took a blindfolded shot, it was accurate But in my heart I know I never asked for this See, this life I'm in, it seem miraculous Who knew I'd break a few bones when I tackled it? It's been years and I still can't adapt to it I cannot predict what my next chapter is There's a hearse speedin' fast in the ashes and I feel like I lay flat in the back of it There's no love in my eyes, so look up in the sky Bring me back like you did Lazarus I can hear the devil whispering, "Come play!" Injecting me softly with numb pain My fingers are covered in blood stains It's torturing I see in my son's aid But one day, that will all change When the fog strays, it's a lost page That had blown away into the hallways In the land where the wild dogs play When you're confined into a small space You will know that that's enough to cause rage I'ma kick until the fuckin' walls break I don't know what made me walk straight Into this fire, my soul is burnin' quick I've been told this isn't permanent Growin' up, my father made a lot of mistakes I do not know why I didn't learn from his Can you direct me to where the furnace is? I need to do away with pain that's lurkin' and Maybe figure out what my new purpose is All these bad vibes are so discouragin' [Chorus: Michael Speaks] In my lowest times I have failed to see Sunny days are waiting I'm in need of some company God, please help this pain 'Cause I don't wanna ever see This lonely road again (This lonely road again) In my lowest times I have failed to see Sunny days are waiting I'm in need of some company God, please help this pain 'Cause I don't wanna ever see This lonely road again (This lonely road again)