making the bed

Want it, so I got it, did it, so it's done Another thing I ruined, I used to do for fun Another piece of plastic I could just throw away Another conversation with nothing good to say I thought it, so I said it, took it 'cause I can Another day pretendin' I'm older than I am Another perfect moment that doesn't feel like mine Another thing I forced to be a sign Well, sometimes I feel like I don't wanna be where I am Gettin' drunk at a club with my fair-weather friends Push away all the people who know me the best But it's me who's been makin' the bed I'm so tired of bein' the girl that I am Every good thing has turned into somethin' I dread And I'm playin' the victim so well in my head But it's me who's been makin' the bed Me who's been makin' the bed Pull the sheets over my head, yeah Makin' the bed And every night, I wake up from this one recurrin' dream Where I'm drivin' through the city, and the brakes go out on me I can't stop at the red light, can't swerve off the road I read somewhere it's 'cause my life feels so out of control And I tell someone I love them just as a distraction They tell me that they love me like I'm some tourist attraction They're changin' my machinery, and I just let it happen I got the things I wanted, it's just not what I imagined Well, sometimes I feel like I don't wanna be where I am Gettin' drunk at a club with my fair-weather friends Push away all the people who know me the best But it's me who's been makin' the bed I'm so tired of bein' the girl that I am Every good thing has turned into somethin' I dread And I'm playin' the victim so well in my head But it's me who's been makin' the bed Me who's been makin' the bed Pull the sheets over my head, yeah Makin' the bed Sometimes I feel like I don't wanna be where I am Countin' all of the beautiful things I regret But it's me who's been makin' the bed Me who's been makin' the bed Pull the sheets over my head Makin' the bed, oh-oh