Car Park

I wonder if you saw that I was sorry for the beating of my heart When it woke you in the car park And maybe I should tell you That I've villainised by body for too long Would it help you find excuses to move on? Like I needed more excuses to be stronger I'm no mother But I've done a lot To prove to those I love that they are good enough I don't believe in luck so I am giving up I hope to find a reason for my fear of feelings leaving at the start It makes my sleeping harder I don't know much about you So I'm trying not to doubt you, but in time I know you'll let me down and that is fine A feeling I can't shake, it's getting stronger I'm no mother But I've done a lot To prove to those I love that they are good enough I don't believe in luck I don't believe in much Leave it all to trust or start to give it up