1983 Remix (Feat. Trena Joiner)

I had to write this in blood because the ink wouldn't stick I sold 5 or 6 million but yo that ain't really shit It was supposed to be different we were supposed to ride out But too much shot his girl then shot himself in the mouth Then the steady gang formed but very soon fell apart 'Cause when you just doin' art with no loyalty in the heart It's like catching Alzheimer's all these niggas forgetting where they coming from Had to slow it down wait a minute what we running from This what we supposed to do here's what we supposed to be I hated MTV for tryin' to play me like a mockery But that don't bother me I just fulfilled my fucking contract Small price to pay just to get your piece of your mind back Mind back Backfire assassination of my character Just to make some millions off America My younger sister Erica just adopted a child My older brother served 15 he made it out Even though my father loved me I ain't seen him in a while Had to fight my baby mama bitch give me my nigga now 'Cause he's running out of time and I need him to understand The way of the superior man I built a brand Niggas talk about my taxes I done paid uncle Sam I'm surviving 'cause the minds eyes quicker than the hand Heartbreak disappointment my mother died when I was 9 I just wanted to join her Nah Mister Joiner you get to California I got something for you to do it's like I was anointed Resurrected foud my purpose I remember meeting Dre Being nervous when I would kick my verses I was virtually worthless my whole life was a circus I was sleeping with serpents and I thought they was worth it I got a call from Paul told me shit wasn't working Exchanged words I told him tell me that shit in person He probably told EM eminem and by the way that he said it Unapologetic twisted made it about him I seen Slim and he said he didn't recognize me Was it that or did he let another man define me I don't know but now I gotta get this all behind me Follow my calling when I used to follow niggas blindly I wish I had a better relationship with my uncles Blood relatives I could turn to when I'm feeling trouble Talk about my struggles my uncle John Nail He only put me on the phone with different females Yeah this is such a such nephew tell her what's up Ain't even ask about Tremayne and Gatlyn growing up Fuck I drink it all and I smashed a bottle Self medicated numb but I'm a feel it tomorrow It felt like pain and sorrow was like a second skin But now the pain is gone I got my second wind Only the strong live long you better settle in I'm fighting forever I will never let the devil win 1983 that's when my journey begins I searched everywhere for strength and only found it within This for me and my kin still dying to live Living life to the fullest till I see you again