Eminem Speaks

I think once I took my first Vicodin it was just like this feeling of Ahh You know like everything was not only mellow but didn't feel any pain It just didn't- it just kind of numbed things I don't know at what point exactly it started to be a problem I just remember likin' it more and more People tried to tell me that I had a problem I would say Get that fuckin' person out of here I can't believe they said that shit to me they know nothin' about my fuckin' life are they out of their fuckin' mind I'm not out there shootin' heroin I'm not out there fuckin' you know puttin' coke up my nosе I'm not smokin' crack You're struggling with the argument of Do you havе a problem or do you not have a problem Can you control it or can you not And I literally thought I could control it You're taking things that people are giving you that you don't even know what the fuck they are They look like a pill and they look- they're shaped like something that you take so you take it you know Xanax Valium tomato-tomato You know what I mean It's th-the same thing it's all in the same family fuck it take it Had I had got to the hospital about two hours later I would've died My organs were shutting down my liver kidneys everything They were gonna have to put me on dialysis they didn't think I was gonna make it My bottom was gonna be death within a month I had relapsed And shot right back up to the same amount of pills that I was taking I remember just walking around my house and thinking every single day like I'm gonna fucking die like I'm-I'm looking at my kids and I need to be here for this Coming off of everything I literally was up twenty-four hours a day for three weeks straight And I mean not sleeping not even nodding off for a fucking minute Like I was literally just up like looking at the TV I had to regain motor skills I had to regain talking skills It's been a-a learning process like it's been I'm growing I just couldn't believe that anybody could ever be naturally happy or naturally function or be just enjoying life in general without being on something So I would say that t-to anybody that i-it does get better you know It just- it does