discombobulated

Life has got me feelin' discombobulated In place of common phrases all i say are awkward statements In every conversation Often sittin' cautious pacin' Droppin' frames in talks with strangers makin' observations In that awful cadence I've been rather quiet since a sophomore Every time my voice comes out my mouth It sounds like nails on a chalkboard Savin' pieces shattered as my age increases faster I can make my thesis matter if i'd learn to fuckin' talk more But that's just an inkling small talk is always shrinking In this ship we'll all be sinkin' 'til we fill in all the gaps I've made some dumb decisions and evaded inhibitions Diggin' graves for my ambitions just to make it on the map Which seems ironic it present given my title Periodically steppin' through this recital i've practiced a thousand times Messagin' with my idols Indefinitley soundin' like a dumbass when i try though I treat a soundcloud page like a diary And push away all the people who inspire me Sorry So afraid of the person i should try to be And it seems by now they should kinda be Sorry