The Man That Never Was

I wanna scream at the top of my lungs Pissed off at myself for what I've done I've been down this path I've felt the wrath of the sins from my past It burns so deep What I've done to you I'll never escape It burns so deep You're everything I'll never be I need to open my eyes to see again to see the way I was back then Gotta find my way, gotta find a way back again Tear open my chest to dig around and tell me why I'm such a mess I got a fear that my heart got up and left Oh I'm somewhere drifting hanging out with regret We're laughing making jokes of past things I did I call apathy my one and only friend Keep a distance I could be contagious I'm a little twisted and in dire need of assistance I won't quit these habits if I know I can't have it Because, because I'm sick, I'm a dick I'm quick with my words Draw on me you'll get hurt I'm scum, I'm numb There's nothing you can do to me that I haven't done I need to open my eyes to see again to see the way I was back then Gotta find my way, gotta find a way back again Tear open my chest to dig around and tell me why I'm such a mess I got a fear that my heart got up and left I am a shadow the hollowed out shell of a man that was You're my mistake You're my mistake I'm the villain Of this metropolis I'll sink this ship I'll burn this bridge I'll end what little life we're in I need to open my eyes to see again to see the way I was back then Gotta find my way, gotta find a way back again Tear open my chest to dig around and tell me why I'm such a mess I got a fear that my heart got up and left Does it make sense to feel so spent Get this off my chest Has the best of me came and went Is this feeling passing I keep asking Is this temporary Please be temporary They say it gets better with time Well it's been time enough and I want to live my life I let you down now you've got me on hold I just want to go home