Feelings

I got a pen in my hand a piece of paper and some tissues Crying in my room and writing songs about my issues I’m viciously wishing that i had someone that would listen To all the thoughts and problems that i have and help me fix them ‘cos i got no motion in my emotions Yeah i feel nothing i think i’m broken I’ve lost my feelings i can no longer feel things And the walls are closing in i’m getting crushed by the ceiling The feeling of feeling real feelings is something That i cannot feel so i'm spending everyday Day dreaming of feeling real feelings but The feelings i'm feeling will never ever be real I can always say that i’m decent I can always play pretend I can always fake all my feelings I can always act like i’m okay If you ever feel that you miss me If i get a call when i’m home Always been a doubt on my face That i'm not this strong And i wish we could live in our paradise But as long as i’m stuck in my past life Had my mind racing fiercely from a thousand lies Now my eyes tearing up feeling paralyzed And i'm numb drowning thoughts with some white wine Can’t comprehend how fucked this mind of mine is I don’t know if you hate me that’s alright Leaving empty handed with every fight Lying down feeling hopeless i can’t lie Wishing i wouldn’t fuck up every time I want to change i’m not used to the sunlight Falling back in your arms is my crime I can always say that i’m decent I can always play pretend I can always fake all my feelings I can always act like i’m okay If you ever feel that you miss me If i get a call when i’m home Always been a doubt on my face That i'm not this strong I can always say that i’m decent I can always play pretend I can always fake all my feelings I can always act like i’m okay If you ever feel that you miss me If i get a call when i’m home Always been a doubt on my face That i'm not this strong