Am I Supposed To Apologize?

I wrote a song a journal Gave it to the world Told the story Of when I was just a girl I sought understanding Clarity in truth By baring all the wounds Inflicted on my youth You criticized my choice To stand up to my past To give the pain a voice So that it too could pass But I felt brave And filled with pride as I let go Of bitterness that wouldn't leave or let me grow But I will spend a lifetime Trying to understand Why someone sharing my bloodline Would not lend me their hand Am I supposed to apologize Am I supposed to apologize Am I supposed to apologize Am I supposed to apologize I loved her more than myself But she made me choose Between her and my father And so I refused I fled her house and wrath Eleven years of age Followed the crooked path That led me to a stage The curtains opened up My heart followed the lead The music wouldn't stop And I could finally breathe But I will spend a lifetime Trying to understand Why someone sharing my bloodline Would not lend me their hand Am I supposed to apologize Am I supposed to apologize Am I supposed to apologize Am I supposed to apologize