complex (live with strings)

I'm twenty-one The edge is razor thin Between being numb and feeling everything Good days only serve as relief again [Pre-Chorus] Now I'm watching as I waste away my days And then It's a cross dissolve It's a scene I've played before And the leading role that I thought I'd hold Doesn't listen to me anymore [Chorus] But I'm wearing his boxers, I'm being a good wife We won't be together, but maybe the next life I need him like watеr, he lives on a landslide I cry in his bathroom, hе turns off the big light I'm being a cool girl, I'm keeping it so tight I carry him home while my friends have a good night I need him like water, he thinks that I'm alright I'm not feeling human, I think he's a good guy [Post- Chorus] But it's complex It's a complex It's a complex I'm a complex [Verse 2] Triangular, I can see them now Three points at which I let myself down I was just a girl, what's the excuse now? Too regular, this pattern I've been taking shelter in reaching new highs When I was nineteen I wanted to die [Pre-Chorus] Now I just want to kill you But I don't want to paint you the victim And I talk a good game I'd die for just the promise you'd listen [Chorus] But I'm wearing his boxers, I'm being a good wife We won't be together, but maybe the next life I need him like water, he lives on a landslide I cry in his bathroom, he turns off the big light I'm being a cool girl, I'm keeping it so tight I carry him home while my friends have a good night I need him like water, he thinks that I'm alright I'm not feeling human, I think he's a good guy [Post-Chorus] But it's complex It's a complex It's a complex I'm a complex