First Heartbreak

I wanna tell you I'm right here But I'm still so angry even after all these years I know your family was falling apart So I don't blame you but I still have a heart All of my friends and my therapist say That it's nothing and I've gone insane Everyone says I'm a narcissist Truth is I just haven't dealt with the blame You chose the drugs, and now everyone else is your friend And I'm left in the flame There's nothing like first heartbreak Know I should move on God knows I've tried But I hit this strange wall without you by my side We were forever at one point in time The night you left me You left me half alive I started running, got faster and faster But I just couldn't get away All of my problems got bigger and bigger Until I couldn't feel the pain Because you chose the drugs, and now everyone else is your friend And I'm going insane There's nothing like first heartbreak Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh I had to lose you to find myself You can't know heaven until you know hell I'll always love you even if you're gone I'm letting go but always holding on