Social Stamina

I lost touch with all my friends I'm in bed by ten PM I have no social stamina I cancel on all my plans I commit then I don't answer I can't keep up with anyone Now I'm a desert island I know I push away until I'm alone When did I become someone no one loves Now I'm a broken record it shows All I ever say is no When did I become someone I don't love Now I don't know I don't know who I am How did I turn into a person who I can't stand How did I let it get this bad Now I can't go back now I'm all I have And I don't know I don't know who I am Trigger warnings in my mind I'm so vulnerable at night so I watch romantic comedies But happy couples make me cry I can't find someone in real life Always feel like something's wrong with me Now I'm a desert island I know I push away until I'm alone When did I become someone no one loves Now I don't know I don't know who I am How did I turn into a person who I can't stand How did I let it get this bad Now I can't go back now I'm all I have And I don't know I don't know who I am And I don't know I don't know who I am Now I don't know I don't know who I am And I don't know I don't know who I am Now I don't know I don't know who I am And I don't know I don't know who I am