Open Letter

Ah-em [Verse] Sometimes I feel like I ain't shit Sometimes a nigga feel like shit Talkin’ 'bout some real life shit Goodbye letter, "Dear Life" shit So if a nigga kill me, hope he mean it I just hope I die for a reason They probably won't miss me ’til they need me Have problems with admittin' that they need me, Lord I'm talkin' 'bout some real life shit Goodbye letter, "Dear Life" shit Way too concerned to be conceited I live and I learn, then die tryna teach 'em, Lord Die tryna reach 'em They care more about how much I leave 'em Where’d I leave it? I hope I leave more of an impression on my kids To be destined to have blessings to believe in, Lord Just got off the phone with my son Told him, "You’re a son of a gun" Just got off the phone with my daughter Told her, "I won't hesitate to fuck a young nigga up", Lord A few bitches left me That only got a new bitch elected My old bitch was too disrespectful And only give my new bitch respect That’s power, yes So now we're next Can't lie though, I tried though I'll die tryin’, that's a common death We was such a team, we was chasin' our dreams Then it stopped, now I'm outta breath Now they try to tell me I need rest And I find love again, I ain't find it yet Oh, but I guess it is what it is As it appears, oh shit The object in the mirror is more near than it appears, oh shit And sometimes I fear who in the mirror, that nigga weird He done died so many times but still here Why am I here? Dear Life What is my meaning? My reason? Naked bitches really love ones Sometimes our loved ones don't love us I'm fuckin' more than I'm makin' love Sometimes I make my rubber wear a rubber I just tell my lady, "Nothing's easy" Even though I make it look easy But understand looks are deceiving Lookin' like I'm lookin' for some grievance 'Cause I been through way too much, don't wanna think about it Cranky 'bout it, gotta drink about it Gotta synchronize it, tranquilize it Doctor ain't prescribin' what he ain't realizin' Pain inside me got me thinkin' 'bout me Tryna hang my body, sanctifyin' I'm a gangsta dyin' 'cause all gangsters die I can't deny it, you can't tame my lion I'm a angry lion hangin' by a string I can't describe it Feel like a anchor tied to my finger Got me sinkin' to the bottom of my drink I know a lotta niggas think I got a lotta niggas There's strength in numbers but there's honor over strength I talked to God the other day, he say he got a nigga So, I look death up in her eye and then I wink It's way too real The shit I'm talkin' way, way too real I hope it gave you chills The dirt under your feet could be the grave you fill You don't know how dead you feel 'til you're dead for real Gettin' high after I paid the bill Lower than a Navy SEAL Show up with them Navy guns I hope somebody prayin' for 'em Price tag, no mistake, somebody payin' for 'em Ice bath, when my face numb, no expression What's the life expectancy when you don't expect shit? Mama told me, "Fuck the world and be so aggressive. Be so fluorescent, watch these hoes 'cause they so obsessive" I don't get too high to look over blessings Never come in second, make the most of your seconds They so precious 'Cause if we could buy time every store would sell it If you want me to read your mind, need correct spelling I keep it real, niggas better keep it copasetic Where the weed? I feel like I'm gettin' a sober headache Lookin' in the mirror at the one that know me better I was too busy to talk, I wrote an open letter [Refrain] Dear Life What is my meaning? My reason? That's the question I ask the reader God bless the reader Dear Life What is my meaning? My reason? That's the question [Outro: Jacida Carter] You know, when he told me Toya was havin' a baby, I say, "Y'all young. You know y'all young." But I said, "Be the best father you can be," you know. And truly, he is that