Carnival

I wish I was a couple years older Couple years wiser Just so I could know your heart But I know that it would still confuse me anyway I felt just a few degrees colder Ever since the day you left Spare my soul Now I can still feel the pieces of my youth just stripped away What is life but a merry go round Just circling doubts living up in my head I know that they want me dead Keep me up when I try to stay down I try to forget all the things that they said But they won’t let me go I try to fall asleep But they won’t let me dream I just hope some day we’ll come to terms I’m falling underneath And I try so hard to breathe As this rollercoaster kills me So this goes out to the mind games in my head You raise hell every night inside of my bed I don’t know where you came from But I won’t play your carnival no more I wish I was just a little stronger So they wouldn’t beat me up But they did I can still feel the mulch that they kicked at me pierce my hope So I dusted off my shoulders and then Told myself that I could prove it to them Just trying to justify the first taste of feeling low I try to fall asleep But they won’t let me dream I just hope some day we’ll come to terms I’m falling underneath And I try so hard to breathe As this rollercoaster kills me So this goes out to the mind games in my head You raise hell every night inside of my bed I don’t know where you came from But I won’t play your carnival no more