1983 (Feat. Trena Joiner)

I had the right to sublurr because they ache one stick I saw five to six million but yo that ain't really shit It was supposed to be different we were supposed to write out But tumach shot his girl then shot himself in the mouth Then the steady game form very soon fell apart 'Cause when you just doing all the loyalty in your heart Slight catch a long hymn on all these niggas forgetting where they're coming from And they're slowing down wait a minute what we're running from This what we're supposed to do here's where we're supposed to be I hated MTV for trying to play me like a mockery But that don't bother me I just fulfill my fucking contract Small price to pay just to take a piece of my back My back backfire assassination of my character Just demassing me in the America My younger sister Erika just adopted a child My older brother served fifteen he made it out Even though my father loved me I ain't seen him for a while Had to fight my baby bitch give me my nigga now 'Cause I'm running out of time and I need him to understand The way a superior man had build a brand Niggas talk about my taxes had to pay I consemn I'm surviving 'cause the lines ass crooked in the hand Heartbreak disappointment my mother died when I was nine I just wanted to join her Now I miss to join her get to California I got something for you to do it was like I was annoying Resurrected found my purpose I remember being dragged being nervous when I would kick my verses I was virtually worthless my whole life was a circus I was sleeping with serpents and I thought it is worth it Got a call from Paul told me shit isn't working Exchange words told me tell me that shit in person He probably told him and by the way did he said it on a prolijetic twisted made about him I see Slim and he said he didn't recognize me Was it that or did he let another man to find me I don't know but now I gotta get this all behind me Follow my calling when I used to follow niggas blindly I wish I had a better relationship with my uncles Blood relatives I could turn to when I'm feeling trouble And talk about my struggles My uncle John Nail he only put me on the phone with different females And this is such a such nephew tell me what's up Ain't even ask about your man in Cali growing up Fuck I drink it all and I smash the bottle Self medicated numb but I'm a feel it tomorrow It feel like pain and sorrow was like a second skin But now that pain was gone I got my second win Only the strong live long you better settle in I'm fighting for ever I will never let the devil win 1983 that's when my journey begins I searched every word for stritting only find it within This for me and my kid still trying to live Living life to the fullest 'till I see you again