Valentine's Day (Shameful)

Torn between crying for help And not lettin' them see me sweat But it's certain shit I can't forget I won't get over it easy shit makes me queasy I am making amends with myself Forgiving me for loving you I took a risk loving loudly defended you proudly Ignored all the signs yeah it's true And the immature me wishes that I could make it known That you should be left alone Don't deserve words or thoughts from me I can go heal on my own And the immature me hopes the world sees just who you are oh A facade only gets you so far And I'm bigger than you so I can't meet you where you are I'd say your name but you don't deserve recognition You played the hero but you really are the villain There ain't a bone in me that wants to spare your feelin's You called me crazy but it was my intuition Used me for status and the fame and recognition It's fuckin' crazy what they do for recognition I'd say your name but you don't deserve recognition I'd say your name but I won't uh I got to give myself credit for loving as hard as I did I helped you fight your addiction and change your whole life Just to find myself played in the end Ain't no regrets cause I'm proud that my heart was so pure And I'm never ashamed of my love Now I'm finding strength in the fact that you're nothing to me And I know the things I am above And the immature me wishes I could just run away Ah ah ah To somewhere I still feel sane 'Cause truth is I've been fuckin' lost since that very day And really I'm wishing that I could just catch a break Ah ah ah It's been Hell every couple days Ooh ooh ooh ooh And now I'm here broken expected to carry the weight I'd say your name but you don't deserve recognition Nah You played the hero but you really are the villain There ain't a bone in me that wants to spare your feelings Ah You called me crazy but it was my intuition Ah Used me for status and the fame and recognition Ah It's fucking crazy what they do for recognition Ooh I'd say your name but you don't deserve recognition I'd say your name but I won't uh That's just you Deserve recognition I always land on my feet Bounce back game clean and neat Ah woah-woah ah Wish I didn't check your text when you was drunk 'sleep I've seen everything that I ain't wanna see That I needed to see that I needed to be Hope you live happily ever after with the bitch Bitch uh Fly to France wine and crackers honeymoonin' with the bitch Hope you fuck around and have the son you wanted with the bitch Y'all might be soulmates after all of this so Out on the table your friends and your family even your label Everyone love me damn it's so shameful I kept you stable you should be grateful I ain’t find out sooner that you was unfaithful Damn you so shameful So fucking shameful Damn you're so uh fucking ungrateful uh