home is lonely

I remember being 13 Having my first drink Throwing up inside the kitchen sink It was you and I, on the same side Getting high, chasing paradise Now suddenly we're 18 Doing the same thing Drinking the same drinks When I look around No one else is even dying to get out I held my breath Took a plane out west I left to be happy And now you hold it against me Tell me, how could home be the place that makes me lonely? And everyone that knows me, doesn't know me at all I didn't think that changing would turn my friends to strangers Is this life worth the chase if there's nobody to call? I know we wasn't raised that way There's certain things you just don't say When you're supposed to be my best mates Now I'm alone when I celebrate We wanted to be astronauts, movie stars Millionaires with fancy cars I didn't think they'd tear us all apart Tell me, how could home be the place that makes me lonely? And everyone that knows me, doesn't know me at all I didn't think that changing would turn my friends to strangers Is this life worth the chase if there's nobody to call? It fucking kills me to say it I had to lose you to change me I feel so lost and I hate it I had to lose you to change me Tell me, how could home be the place that makes me lonely? And everyone that knows me, doesn't know me at all I didn't think that changing would turn my friends to strangers Is this life worth the chase if there's nobody to call? It fucking kills me to say it I had to lose you to change me I feel so lost and I hate it I had to lose you to change me