Deathbed

I apologize for what I said But I still meant it I know that I live in my head U won't let me forget it I promised that I tried But walls don't break And words don't mean enough I swear I never meant To lose my grip on something that I love Chorus I'll be laying on my deathbed And I'll tell u that I fucked it up Yeah I'll be laying on my deathbed 'Cause I love u but it's not enough Verse 2 I'm praying something's gonna give Yeah I know I feel it And the pendulum is gonna swing And rotate the seasons I promise that I'll try To be a person u deserve at all Cause maybe if I change You'll let me in when I wanna come home Chorus I'll be laying on my deathbed And I'll tell u that I fucked it up Yeah I'll be laying on my deathbed 'Cause I love u but it's not enough Outro I promised that I tried But walls don't break And words don't mean enough I swear I never meant To lose my grip on something that I love