How`d You Have Me

I've saved up enough courage And I'll spend it now But all for what I ask myself No it doesn't feel that an answer matters Oh I thought I needed you to give me strength The things I'd hoped you'd say But as you stayed quiet I'd just wonder Only one thing left I wished I knew How did you have me and I only got you If it's all bad timing and there's no control Not gonna do anything You'll do everything I want from now on When I'm with you change your voice you change your face Scared to say what's wrong But we kept going on yeah kept going on like Two adult children engaged in separate play You can run down all those days to me Go through the whole year but why Only one thing left I wished I knew How did you have me and I only got you If it's all bad timing and there's no control Not gonna do anything You'll do everything I want from now on No one else would be as patient Or at least be so forgiving I'm not curious at all that your heart was You can talk and I might listen Hate the words you're sure no present I'm done living powered by this hurt Only one thing left I wished I knew How did you have me and I only got you If it's all bad timing and there's no control Not gonna do anything You'll do everything I want from now on