Trying

What will we do now we’ve lost it to trying We’ve lost it to trying trying Trying to be content ain’t trying to be complacent Trying to stay grounded while I’m trying to break it Trying to stay motivated my motors’ waning I got invitation to the game don’t wanna overstay it Trying to be a great husband trying to be a great artist Trying to find inspiration Trying to find where the heart is yeah Trying to blow your mind and speaker Trying to buy it never lease it trying to get some time with Jesus Trying to find my genius Trying to hide my secrets Trying to find a reason Trying to trust my ideas Trying to speed up the process Trying to stop reading comments Trying to find some confidence I’m trying to find my keys I’m trying to be respected Trying to hit the checklist Trying to reach perfection Trying to reach to leave an impression Trying to put this phone down for a second I’m trying to check it I’m trying to live up to everything I expected Trying to buy some bitcoin Trying to buy some loyalty Trying to find a producer who wants more than just a royalty Trying to innovate while everybody trying to imitate Trying to make it look like I ain’t trying damn All my life all I ever did was try I’m just trying All my life all I ever did was try I’m just trying Trying to stop trying and start trusting I’m trying to stop lusting Trying to stop cussing ah F$& it I’m trying to have my name in the top ten whenever that’s in discussion I’m trying to make a major impact with an indie budget I’m trying to be present I’m trying to be faithful trying to be grateful I’m trying to be gracious but they trying my patience I’m trying to be great trying to find balance Trying to move forward never go backwards Ain’t trying to be average live a life that matters Trying to out run sadness eat more salad Trying to leave my baggage but I keep on packing Trying to get back in to the road less traveled But I need my map I delete my apps For a week then I’ll be right back I’m trying to see me in a ‘lac On the West Side Highway doing ninety with the seat leaned way back Beat in the back I got baggage I ain’t unpack I got things that I can’t take back Words that I tell myself way worse than the ones when they attack Now one thing that I know is for certain I’m gonna ruin everything trying to make it perfect All my life I’ve been searching For protection I show the blemish They go to exit no affection Show the love don’t finesse it Flesh and blood not the weapon Load it up get the blessing Phone em up get the message Rolling up codependent All my life all I ever did was try All my life all I ever did was try What if I showed up could it be enough What if I showed up could it be enough I can’t be everything that I wanna be for you But I’ll be here trying