The List

Oh I have a hobby of pickin' myself apart Leavin’ people I love waitin' in the dark And sometimes when I want to cry I laugh It's kind of funny Oh and this October I went fallin’ off the edge All of London must have heard the things I said Put your hand up if I let you down again hmm There's a list of things that I should stop List of things that I should stop List of things that I should not be doin' but I do 'em It's a pattern that I got I need to stop my excuses and have a real conversation Need to look in the mirror stop findin' things that need changin' Need to stop gettin' drunk to avoid the situation I need to stop lettin’ myself down I’ll try something that I've not before And like myself a little more now Oh I I’ve got an attic full of damage in my mind I box it up say I'll deal with it another night And I have a problem lookin' people in the eye Isn't that funny There’s a list of things that I should stop List of things that I should stop List of things that I should not be doin' but I do 'em It's a pattern that I've got I need to stop my excuses and have a real conversation Need to look in the mirror stop findin' things that need changin' Need to stop gettin' drunk to avoid the situation I need to stop lettin' myself down I should shut up and listen not try to fill every silence I should stumble in love instead of runnin' and hidin' I should stop gettin' drunk and showin' up uninvited I need to stop lettin' myself down I'll try something that I've not before Oh I'm a master at dancin' around the point I know I called you but I hate the sound of my own voice So can you talk You know I'm stackin' up Until the night I'm not enough And you're just someone else I disappoint I need to stop my excuses and put my feelings in order Need to look in the mirror and stand a little bit taller Need to stop gettin' drunk as a reason to call you I need to stop lettin' myself down Oh I should shut up and listen not try to fill every silence I should stumble in love instead of running and hiding I should stop getting drunk and showing up uninvited I need to stop letting myself down I'll try something that I've not before And like myself a little more now