Popular Monster

Yeah Verse 1 I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway Everybody tries to tell me that I'm goin' through a phase I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah I battle with depression, but the question still remains Is this post-traumatic stressin' or am I suppressin' rage And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase Yeah, it's not a fuckin' phase, I just wanna feel okay Pre-Chorus Okay, yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me Chorus 'Cause I'm about to break down I'm searchin' for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down Falling into love now With falling apart I'm a popular, popular monster Verse 2 I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I'll replace I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case Oh my God, I keep on stressin', every second that I waste Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage Yeah, it's not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay Pre-Chorus Okay, motherfucker, now you got my attention I need to change a couple things 'cause somethin' is missing And what if I were to lie Tell you everything is fine Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave I am terrified, I fell asleep at the wheel again Crashed my car just to feel again It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me Chorus 'Cause I'm about to break down I'm searchin' for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down Falling into love now With falling apart I'm a popular, popular fucking monster, yeah Breakdown Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, oh We're sick and tired of wondering Praying to a god that you don't believe You're searching for the truth in the lost and found So the question I ask is, oh, where the fuck is your god now Chorus 'Cause I'm about to break down I'm searchin' for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down Falling into love now With falling apart I'm a popular, popular monster Outro I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster