Breaking the Habit

Memories consume like opening the wounds I'm picking me apart again You all assume I'm safe here in my room Unless I try to start again I don't want to be the one The battles always choose Cuz inside I realize that I'm the one confused I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I know it's not alright So I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit tonight Clutching my cure I tightly lock the door I try to catch my breath again I hurt much more than any time before I have no options left again I don't want to be the one the battles always choose Cuz inside I realize that I'm the one confused I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright So I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit tonight I'll paint it on the walls cuz I'm the one that falls I'll never fight again And this is how it ends I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream But now I have some clarity to show you what I mean I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright So I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit tonight