Five

I want to watch the universe expand. I want to break it into pieces small enough to understand and put it all back together again in the quiet of my private collection. It feels like an out of body experience- but something gets lost from a safe distance and now I can't put my mind to rest and I can't help but second guess living behind this one-way mirror. I'm hypnotized by this anomaly. Such strange uncharted territory- a white flag waves in the dark between my head and my heart. My armor falls apart, as if I could let myself be seen, even deeply known. Like I was already brave enough to let go. And now I want to generously lose this energy that I've been hanging onto so desperately. I finally feel the universe expand- it's hidden in heartbeats exhales and in the hope of open hands