Best Intentions

Every now and then I want to feel the escape When the depression sets in and my spirit breaks And I go out huntin' demons and they make me beg Got me pissin' in the wind down my own damn leg If God wrote a book 'bout everything that he's done I'd go searching for my name now wouldn't everyone And you can tell me point blank that I'm a narcissist I'm just needing confirmation that I exist Please don't read my mind I'm so scared of what you'll find I haven't left it all behind So much hate 'cause of all the hurt No idea what I'm really worth I'm holding out for peace and air time You have to understand that my intentions are good And everything I do I do for love I've got two little souls and I love 'em man That I'm trying to lead to the promised land We take big old trips down to the countryside Got a big old house where we reside And there's a big old boy with a big old gun Stays up all night in case the weirdos come I had a job but I resigned Then I had a change of mind I will again if I'm inclined Another moan from a millionaire I don't know why I'm telling you 'cause you don't care I'm holding out for peace and air time I'm a little bit older but not wiser still I was smoking marijuana taking sleeping pills But I get up in the morning take the kids to school And my other indiscretions are so minuscule And I really pray to God it stays that way 'Cause deep inside I think I'm still dirty When you take your chances and you ride your luck All you're really saying is I could fuck this up You have to understand that my intentions are good And everything I do I do for love I've made a ton of mistakes it's either fight or flight But every now and then I kinda get it right I kinda get it right