Trauma

Growing up, I never had a lot of money I never had a phone, always was a little hungry Used to find it hard to sleep, when I could hear my mother sobbing I was 10 back then I didn't have a room, had to buy used shoes I hid behind tunes to avoid abuse And every time I fell, I would blame it on myself Even if it was an accident Maybe, it's not what I want Oh, I've seen better days And the moment fucking sucks But I'll be damned, if I don't stop And, honestly, why not? When nobody gives a fuck? But sometimes I just can't help myself I wanna give up trying and start doing something else Sometimes I just get overwhelmed I know it's in my mind But I think I need some help Sometimes I just can’t help myself I was an outcast Thrown out to dry and get laughed at Too shy to talk about home I always thought life was supposed to be cold And, oh, I’ve been so lost without hope I got a window in my head, it’s a casket You know I've been wishing I was dead, but I mask it Maybe, it's not what I want Oh, I've seen better days And the moment fucking sucks But I'll be damned, if I don't stop And, honestly, why not? When nobody gives a fuck? But sometimes I just can't help myself I wanna give up trying and start doing something else Sometimes I just get overwhelmed I know it's in my mind But I think I need some help Because it’s all I know my hands around my throat Pray that, I won’t let go this time around But every single time I try to shut my eyes I see the reason why I’m not alone But sometimes I just can’t, but But sometimes I just can't help myself I wanna give up trying and start doing something else Sometimes I just get overwhelmed I know it’s in my mind But I think I need some help Sometimes I just can’t help myself I think we got it